I've decided that I MUST prove myself to NOone ....the world just seems to be full of people who like to place the blame of EvErYtHiNg on me, simply because they can not take responsiblility for their own actions.....quite sad if u ask me.....never the less I must not let this get to me......Right about now I seem to have the Best* friend ANY one could ever ask 4, he's sweet, caring, and ALWAYS* there...thats why he's so special to me......not to mention he's my boyfriend and by now everyone knows his name is Garrett...its seems i've known him 4ever but in all actuality i've only know him about 8 months 6 of which we've been dating...his love for me is everlasting as is mine for him......i cant fathom what i'd do if i was to lose him...but i dont waist my time thinking of things which seem so trivial.....I only say it in that tone because I just don't see us being apart anytime soon...if ever. He keeps me happy, but when I am down I know that he's there to pick me right back up......boyfriend does not seem the word to use to describe him SIMPLY because he is just so mUCh more than that 2 me.....people say a friend is not defined by length of time knowing someone BUT by your knowledge of them and the depth of your relationship..this comes with time spend and memories, shared time getting to know them while learning more about yourself along the way..time not being the KEY* more so conversation..Garrett has brought things out in me that I never knew were there and I only see myself fortunate to have a man so wonderful in my life someone I can call on No matter what the circumstances....so I come to the end of this...... only to say that I love him with all that i've got and could imagine myself with NO one else nor would I ever want to.."I realise  I LOVE* devotionaly which may be overwhelming for some, but to me it could never be to much"......Love is a difficult thing to find BUT when you are fortunate enough to find it....NEVER..EVER..let it go

  Trust a noun used daily, but what exactly is the definition, the dictionary says trust is firm reliance on the integrity, ability, or character of a person or thing. Trust can mean something different to everyone...and people can also give trust differently .......Some withingly give it therefore leaving themselves accessible to pain, but others cling to trust as if there lives depended on it....mainly for protection or fear of being hurt or betrayed........good reasons but is it effective......NO you won't be hurt because you don't allow anyone to get close enough to hurt you but while gaurding yourself you miss out on the experience of fully, unfearfully trusting someone. Giving them your all while TRUSTING* them not to betray your trust bond...Love goes hand in hand with trust in my opinion. I dont belive a relationship can succeed with out trust because otherwise your both expecting the other to mess up and fail, and if they do which you think they will you will have the satisfaction of saying I knew it and because u never let yourself get FULLY attached you can walk away unhurt because u exspected it.......but is that how u really want to live??? I believe love is an adventure full of ups and downs all which make it a great learning experience. No trust makes your relationship static and therefore taking the fun aspect out of love......